"why didnt you tell me. you left me all out in the cold. why couldnt you just admit it. ur out, with another hand.. it cries on your shoulder. it lingers where ever you go. its follows your everywhere. it calls you everynight. it makes you sad. it makes you [b]angry-mad-happy-glad[/ b]. its makes you wait. it makes you laugh... but to it. you make it love. you make it happy. you make it sad. you make it laugh. you make it [b]TALK[/b]. you make it cry.......you make me [b]confused[/b]."
well theres this one dude...i dunno..by the name of anonymous. i saw him at this one place.adn then then ext hting you know i see him again at this...... "place" it was pretty funny..i didnt even know he would do this thing.but what-evah.. i guess he's really up for it isnt he. well. PRAISE GOD im cured...with the help of people and the HOly Spirit. WoOoT WOOOoot. haha.anyway.yeh so im like reading his blog...something was caught to me..i cant say but its just this lil thing how he didnt even have a chance to__. :wink: same here..im so stupid. i'll do it once i see him again.. ONCE i see him again.i hope. i dont really know his name..but i'de actually wanna "say" something atleast. wahtever.. i'll let my mind do all the talking here. hehehe. laters losers.
I'm sittin' here all by myself just tryin' to think of something to do.Tryin' to think of something, anything just to keep me from thinking of you.But you know it's not working out 'cause you're all that's on my mind. One thought of you is all it takes to leave the rest of the world behind.
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did. And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did. And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did. And you didn't mean to love me back/but I know you did
I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myselfthat you're not the one for me. But the more I think, the less I believe it and the more I want you here with me. You know the holidays are coming up, I don't want to spend them alone. Memories of Christmas time with you will just kill me if I'm on my own.
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did. And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did. And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did. And you didn't mean to love me back/but I know you did
I know it's not the smartest thing to do we just can't seem to get it right. But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight.
I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with this old guitar. But with all my inspiration goneit's not getting me very far. I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you. Oh please, baby won't you take my hand, we've got nothing left to prove.
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did. And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did. And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did. And you didn't mean to love me back/but I know you did
And I didn't mean to meet you then, we were just kids. And I didn't mean to give you chills, the way that I kiss. And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did. And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did. Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did. No, you didn't mean to love me back..But you did
unspoken...not in the mood. i dont HATE YOU...i just reacted that way..im just REALLY CONFUSED. and no one can help me with it..it sucks..it sucks knowing that i messed it up..because i didnt want it to go this far.i dont want you to hate me..but i know you didnt want me to hate you..i guess i iddnt evne know why i hated you. but i dont.. and im SORRY.
another one guys....im so tired.and for [b]JERRIK[/b]..download a song called "a lonely september" by "the plain white t's"..whatever. anyways..my life is kinda of jumbled here and there..i mean my family is ok...its just that i seem to not get my mind of off the [u][b]past [/b][/u]anymore...its just kind of out there..i dont know what to do more..someone..help..all of this other mess is comming back in my head already. i dont want to remember it. but all this shit keeps comming back..its just like reading [b]A BOOK ABOUT YOUR PAST [/b]and writing a one million page essay on it because theres so much shit..whatever. im like totally going [b]EMO[/b] on myself...i dont know why..god..help me..i have turned away from god many times..but its just hard to say that im turning back again when i know i shouldnt be.
i mean with all the misundrstandings before..i shouldve killed myself back when i was only 10. to whom reading this KNOWS what im going through..and have been going through the same thing..PRAISE god..just talk to him man..he'll help..but its your decision..well..talk to you aters...
he's fuckin hott BOIS! haha.. i dont know why i feel this way about [b]JERRIK[/b]!!! and yes im keeping this in the open because i am so fucking tired of just keeping it inside all the time.. i mean sometimesi need to let it stay..but now its just getting to me..[b]JERRIK[/b], watch your back loser..... :twisted:
i guess life for me isnt going great.. i made bad choices i went through the worse things..sometimes people just need [b]a day off[/b].. andi know i do..
i've been stressing..damaging my hair..practically killing it then making it look nice after,running away...not knowing what im running away from. i guess theres just a scare.. i hate it... i have a fear for something that i dont even know about..i just need help...know one can help me now...its just me..
DANDANdevito Hey Hey Hey guys.. look at my Blog.. its pretty tiTe! ahahah.. well just stoppin by and just being bored at home..SEND me a message. haha. laterS.
[image]differentlychosen_ 13339218.jpg[/image] hey..its me grace.. im bored so yeh.. and i mess up on my recent blog..i'll check that laters.. alrighty.. pEacE!
sometimes i just never know..you know its gets really annoying for people to go [b]CALLing[/b] me in the Middle of the night trying to ask me "WHAt haPPened To XANGA"...so for the people who did that last night..
Guys are such losers sometimes...they just dont know when the POINT is right under their noses.. "is this another one of your jokes...because if it is..PLEASE...get to the punch line already and stop hurting me"::"you feelings are like sand.. the minute you hold on and the minute you let go, its just there..but when hold tight on it for a long time, you feel bits and peices of it comming out..one by one"::"you held me in your arms..but still you didnt feel my heart beating for you"::"i shouldve thrown a shovel to your head when i had the chance"
quotes from the [b]madWoman[/b].. GODblessGOD. what i did yesterday :wink: -curled my hair -went to jerriks house -we were throwing rocks at each other -i left -i cried - i was not feeling well -i curled my hair again -i talked to my sister - i went to sleep
JeEEz..Its still HOt..haha. well anyways.. Jude thinks IM SECK-C. Yeah..ahhawell watevah.. im just tryin to live life.. thats all..you know.. it really sucks. i guess. life became on of my low standard options..i havent been taking good care of it. i mean i've been sad and down.. i havent talked to anyone that gave me good advice.. wel except Xanne..YEH her advice did help.. but i need the type of help that would get my mind off of the bad and in with the Good. i mean.. maybe i justh avent tlaked to God for a long time..like actually made contact over him..just like what Lai said "let go.and.let God" i mena i believe it.. im letting go..but im not eally letting God at this moment.. i try.. but nothing can help it but myself. i guess myself is as broken as xanga..i mean..right now i actually FEEL like Killing my Ex-Boyfriend.i mean from what he has been doing.. i think you would literally Tackle him too.. but to me its worse.. and all this mess about my Relationship with God..i havent really had a close management with him lately..im trying.. but it makes me wanna cry sometimes that the way my life usually was.. was changed. but i thank God for giviing me that Bad life because he made me realize how Great and Caring i am about myself and Him. and also for other people. i mean.. just changing the bad to good was enough for many people..like i was Off there backs. this is GoOd. God: the Savior, the ONe and ONly, The Creator,The Greatest, the Most High, The MAn!,he's like The strings of the guitar(he strums his love for us.. and we echo back his love),The Boba in Your BubBleTea or your LoLicup Drink, he's like the Rice in our DinNer. becuase you cant have just OOlam and no rice..its like your life. with no God.. well you get the point. Thankyou God for creating Me..i mean.if you Thank the people who Braught you XANGA..what more PRaise for God!! he created ur BuTT MisTer/miSsis.
just.. watching TFc..im watching WHAt-A-Men.. well watevah.. im just really REALLY bored... i mean.. im really really lacking the entertainment..(henry :wink: ) well anyways..Richie sucks my ass alot..but i guess its over with all the Bull. :shock: i SEE hoTT guys running outside.. uhoh.. its Danny. Brent. Ernest. and NatedOgg. hahahah. Hey LosER. they just stopped by to say sup to my Bro.. well.. laters everyone..im TirEd..
HeN....and the REality of it all.. which one came first.. the Chicken or the Egg...hmm.. who knows.. just read [b]the book of unknowledgable doubts[/b].
its hard to just realize that u dont belong in this world.. but sometimes along the way.. you meet someone exactly your size mentally.emotionally.and physically..for me. its God.he's behind me all the way.. i mean i know he's the [b]Greatest/the king/and the almighty[/b].. but whenever i look back at my relationship with him, i feel a vibe between both of us like he can stay to my level..he can help me through any trail.. Praise God.
"why didnt you tell me. you left me all out in the cold. why couldnt you just admit it. ur out, with another hand..